forgive -- forget ??

Everyone should forgive.
Days are long but the years?..they're short
why waist that on holding grudges, feeling sad, annoyed, hurt, and all the other feelings that feel really bad to us. I mean of course there's a reason why we all have these types of feelings. Maybe a loss of a loved one or friend..or an end of a relationship...or a fight with someone you love..and many more reasons there could be. I mean to really forgive..would make all of us a stronger person..im not saying to forget any of it but its best to forgive and put it all behind us and spend all that time that would have been spent on feeling those bad feelings, on something else that who knows? could be something wonderful..

Granted that there are some things that we can not forgive certain people for but for the rest of it..its time to let go dont you think?

Well..Im learning now about all of this and im trying to start forgiving people who have done me wrong and im kindof an emotional person but im going to learn how not to take to heart so much about what people say think or do. I mean because in my head its like..I would want someone to forgive me for anything ive done to them you know? so why wouldnt i do the same back?..

Dont ever let anyone walk all over you..not even the slightest bit. Ive learned in the past some people you try to help out of the kindness of your heart..only come back to ask for more. I guess its one of the many lessons life has to offer. =)

Saturday night movie

to wong foo thanks for everything julie newmar

So here i am alone all sad and down over stuff thats going on. but anyways. So i started watching tv on lifetime..then i ended up watching one of my fav movies =) ha! i love this movie...Makes me laugh sooo much. i love ChiChi "Ima latina marilyn monroe i got more legs then a bucket of chicken Pendeja" So many more memorable quotes lol. Ah i love all three! =) lol this movie left me in a good mood.

R.I.P Patrick Swayze

This was most def one of his best!

Whore by Tanika Lynch

So i got this book called Whore by Tanika Lynch. Its one of them kinda books you wont put down until you finish! and i love that. I just liked how Tanika used street talk throught the book and i just really loved the book =)

so basically in the book...
Kamone, light skin,green eyes, 15yrs old. She was a girl that went through more then any of us will ever go through in life. From being born from an Hiv coke whore to getting molested at 5 by her own father and having to prostitute herself to help her 7 and 3 years old sibling survive cus her mother decided to get up and leave her to hit the streets. She had to take coke to be able to prostitute herself because without it she had low self worth with guys. She put trust in the wrong people and ends up double cross the wrong people. So she ended up calling this guy trying to be a girl a faggot.. and he sends her to his people to get drugs. Kamone had no idea what was going to happen...She ended up raped by over 15 guys because they tied her up and ran in her one after the other..So after they finished, they over drugged her and she almost died and they ended up dropping her off in a alley way like she was nothing..Then this guy and his friend came accross her body and basically saved her....Then there was alot that went on between the guy and his twin brother...the brother wanted Kamone bacause she resembled his mother so much..Its a crazy twist at the end and leaves you surprised!

bounty hunter

So i was watching the show, btw (its crazy how rediculously hugh his wife boobs are..no joke) = ANYWAYS.. so it was the episode where their daughter was getting married and after the wedding rehearsal they all had like a dinner going on and in the middle of the dinner, the bride and her parents ; the rest of the bounty hunter gang left the dinner to catch some girl they've been looking for. The daughter of course was kindof pissy about it in the beggining of them leaving to get the lady. But thats understandable, what bride wants to leave her own dinner after having her wedding rehearsal to get some female and lock her up? Welp, they caught the lady (of course) as they usually do..so then they showed the wedding. Ugh! i swear i started tearing up..and i normally dont tear for anything on tv..but the wedding was sooo beautiful!

God, i think all weddings are beautiful and such a blessing for two people to get together and say i do and have the mindset and focus to be faithful,loving,true, and just be there for that person through ups and downs and everything else life throws at us!..

When i get married. OMG. i just want it of course to be with the RIGHT person. And i want my wedding to be unique in a way to call our own. You know what i mean, simple things that makes such the difference and such more deeper meaning to hold. Hmm. i cant wait to get all creative lol. and of course another important thing....finding the dress that feels and looks too perfect on us.Of course every bride wants that! And i kinda would love special pictures like taken with bride and groom different beautiful and unique settings,you know? hmmm my thoughts are jus so into all of this..i could go on and on..

its a blessing to get married..and not giving up and making it work =)

mothering

Well tonight im in my room, cold and just got my mind all out there thinking about so much! *smirks*.

Well earlier in my day i was sitting on my porch with my parents just talking and what not. So ive kinda got close to my neighbor and her 2 kids.[Kenya, Ziarh] I have to admit after only knowing her and her two beautiful kids for a couple of months ive really grown attached to them. The first picture is me kissing her =) she has that face on her cause my mom kept saying "my erica" she gets mad when people try to claim me..lol kids :]

Im not sure what it is but most of my life all i hear from people is how im really good with kids and id be a really good mother ; so on with those types of comments. Id just smile and say thanks. Everybody is right though..im not sure what it is but for some reason i have a way with kids and im sure id be a good mother to my own like all mothers should be.

So everymorning when Kenya wakes up she begs her mom to go out front to see if im up. So if im not outside sometimes shell run to my porch and try to open the door or shell yell EH-KA thinking i could here her. She is just so adorable and loving ; will be such a beautiful girl when she grows up =)

I really want kids someday..but the thing is i just wanna have my life together meaning a good home and job. I also feel like i dont want kids unless its with the man im going to really be with..im not tryna have different babys fathers or have a kid with a guy but me and the father aren't together..I just want a family that of course would have ups and downs (like any family) and just be a really good mother to my kids; teach them right. Having kid[s] is just such a beautiful thing.

Nails

lol @ how i put my fingers..but the black ; white is my fav =)

Hair

okay so yesterday i gave myself bangs.
Turns out everyone likes it but me.
I'm not sure if it because im not use to it yet or what!
Hairstyles definatly can make or break someones confidence..got mines not so great
Well heres a pic i took after i did it.


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