R.I.P

W O W .
ok guys... *moment of silence*

so where im from, three children passed away...Todays their funeral...Damn..god has more angels with him tho...r.i.p


Heres the report :

READING, Pa. -- The state police and Reading fire marshals say Thursday's fire that killed three little girls was caused by something many of us have done at one time or another, leaving food cooking on the stove unattended.
The fire spread rapidly, killing three girls and injuring their mother and her boyfriend, Lucien White. They are both listed in critical but stable condition at Lehigh Valley Hospital.
Family and friends are grieving for Brenda Angel and how she lost her three angels.
Fire officials say the fire ripped through the kitchen, up the back staircase to the 3rd floor rear bedroom where Thalia Mendez, 11, Joselee Mendez, 10, and Briana Mendez, 7, were sleeping. They died of smoke inhalation and thermal burns.
The flames trapped their mother in the front bedroom, giving her just one escape route.
Reading Fire Marshal Todd Iaeger said, "We know this she couldn't have gone out the third floor rear, we have three deceased children there. She couldn't have made it down the stairwell, it was unbelievable and unattainable conditions. She certainly couldn't get out the 2nd floor rear because that's the fire originator."
Iaeger says she went through the 3rd floor front window and climbed to her neighbor's home.
Firefighters say the flames were intense when they went inside to fight it. They say smoke detectors were inside but there's no evidence they were working.

http://www.wfmz.com/news/23704882/detail.html

Worst day ever

On December 28, 2009 i lost my father. I guess my biggest problem is that i dont know how to deal with it..man its so hard...i just feel like i need to vent =(

October 13th...New start =)

Well, here I am in class I woke up at 6 this morning so tired! I am so not a morning person. Well I’m in my “transcription” class it just really gets annoying sometimes so I take a break from it for a couple minutes [ so I thought id blog =P ].
I haven’t been able to get on as much because school has been getting hectic and so a lot of time goes into it. I’m sure yall understand where I’m coming from. Besides school theres been a lot of drama family wise…I just get so sick of it cause I feel like damn is there ever a moment where everyone can “get along” or not have SOMETHING always go wrong.. Every family has their own problems but I wish it wasn’t always. Sheesh.
As for me and Mr. Yeah. Yeaaaaa about that…well ive decided to put myself away from him because..its only right. So now atleast he’s living his life and im living mines. There is no more “us” and I never would have guessed in a million years that I would be without him..or him without me. I guess I was kinda stuck on the idea of I got someone good and he loves me and he’ll do me right since he loves me..ha how many females think that and its actually true? Idk what made me think that I was so different and lucky to have something THAT good. Well enough of me rambling on about that. I’m learning to deal and move on. =) Ive met a couple guys but im keeping them as friends because I feel like its kinda too soon to move on. I will when im ready..some of my friends tell me I should just give another dude a chance and they say that if I do that maybe ill find someone that treats me how I should be treated but idk only time will tell huh? But for now my mind is focused on me and my life.
Current song: MC- I cant wait to hate you.

forgive -- forget ??

Everyone should forgive.
Days are long but the years?..they're short
why waist that on holding grudges, feeling sad, annoyed, hurt, and all the other feelings that feel really bad to us. I mean of course there's a reason why we all have these types of feelings. Maybe a loss of a loved one or friend..or an end of a relationship...or a fight with someone you love..and many more reasons there could be. I mean to really forgive..would make all of us a stronger person..im not saying to forget any of it but its best to forgive and put it all behind us and spend all that time that would have been spent on feeling those bad feelings, on something else that who knows? could be something wonderful..

Granted that there are some things that we can not forgive certain people for but for the rest of it..its time to let go dont you think?

Well..Im learning now about all of this and im trying to start forgiving people who have done me wrong and im kindof an emotional person but im going to learn how not to take to heart so much about what people say think or do. I mean because in my head its like..I would want someone to forgive me for anything ive done to them you know? so why wouldnt i do the same back?..

Dont ever let anyone walk all over you..not even the slightest bit. Ive learned in the past some people you try to help out of the kindness of your heart..only come back to ask for more. I guess its one of the many lessons life has to offer. =)

Saturday night movie

to wong foo thanks for everything julie newmar

So here i am alone all sad and down over stuff thats going on. but anyways. So i started watching tv on lifetime..then i ended up watching one of my fav movies =) ha! i love this movie...Makes me laugh sooo much. i love ChiChi "Ima latina marilyn monroe i got more legs then a bucket of chicken Pendeja" So many more memorable quotes lol. Ah i love all three! =) lol this movie left me in a good mood.

R.I.P Patrick Swayze

This was most def one of his best!

Whore by Tanika Lynch

So i got this book called Whore by Tanika Lynch. Its one of them kinda books you wont put down until you finish! and i love that. I just liked how Tanika used street talk throught the book and i just really loved the book =)

so basically in the book...
Kamone, light skin,green eyes, 15yrs old. She was a girl that went through more then any of us will ever go through in life. From being born from an Hiv coke whore to getting molested at 5 by her own father and having to prostitute herself to help her 7 and 3 years old sibling survive cus her mother decided to get up and leave her to hit the streets. She had to take coke to be able to prostitute herself because without it she had low self worth with guys. She put trust in the wrong people and ends up double cross the wrong people. So she ended up calling this guy trying to be a girl a faggot.. and he sends her to his people to get drugs. Kamone had no idea what was going to happen...She ended up raped by over 15 guys because they tied her up and ran in her one after the other..So after they finished, they over drugged her and she almost died and they ended up dropping her off in a alley way like she was nothing..Then this guy and his friend came accross her body and basically saved her....Then there was alot that went on between the guy and his twin brother...the brother wanted Kamone bacause she resembled his mother so much..Its a crazy twist at the end and leaves you surprised!

bounty hunter

So i was watching the show, btw (its crazy how rediculously hugh his wife boobs are..no joke) = ANYWAYS.. so it was the episode where their daughter was getting married and after the wedding rehearsal they all had like a dinner going on and in the middle of the dinner, the bride and her parents ; the rest of the bounty hunter gang left the dinner to catch some girl they've been looking for. The daughter of course was kindof pissy about it in the beggining of them leaving to get the lady. But thats understandable, what bride wants to leave her own dinner after having her wedding rehearsal to get some female and lock her up? Welp, they caught the lady (of course) as they usually do..so then they showed the wedding. Ugh! i swear i started tearing up..and i normally dont tear for anything on tv..but the wedding was sooo beautiful!

God, i think all weddings are beautiful and such a blessing for two people to get together and say i do and have the mindset and focus to be faithful,loving,true, and just be there for that person through ups and downs and everything else life throws at us!..

When i get married. OMG. i just want it of course to be with the RIGHT person. And i want my wedding to be unique in a way to call our own. You know what i mean, simple things that makes such the difference and such more deeper meaning to hold. Hmm. i cant wait to get all creative lol. and of course another important thing....finding the dress that feels and looks too perfect on us.Of course every bride wants that! And i kinda would love special pictures like taken with bride and groom different beautiful and unique settings,you know? hmmm my thoughts are jus so into all of this..i could go on and on..

its a blessing to get married..and not giving up and making it work =)